So I have been taking this medical administration class at so I can become certified to administer medications and I took the test on Friday (passed) and I took the intership test today (passed) and now I am recieving my promotion. I have also been reading this book a lot lately about starting a nonprofit for child advocacy and I am super excited. Sometimes I feel frustrated because things dont seem to be moving fast enough or if I can't seem to understand or know everything about what is happening with my life but I was reminded when I read 1st Kings chapter 6 that God has all those details. When Solomon was building the temple, everything was built so specifically and to see those details come to be, I take comfort in the fact that God works out the details in my life and they will become tangible in the right time. I think about what it takes to build a building... You have to actually have the dream or get the instruction to build, then you need the land to build on, then you have to have the materials. You also need the help of others, then you have to start on the foundation and sometimes you have to go back to the blueprint. All these things remind me of God not just being my author and finsher but He is my builder and perfector and my trainer and I know my life is in His hands.

And my enemies will become my footstool...this is true! But what I find is sometimes we get caught up with our enemies becoming our footstool that we dont pray for them. Lately, I have been having a very rough time at work. My supervisor seemed to be discriminating against me because of my culture. I spoke to her today and I thank God for giving me the boldness to tell her my heartfelt feelings and observations about her job performance and not only has she apologized to me, but she is now confiding in me her hopes and dreams and I thought of POC as sue was telling me her dream of getting her books published and getting a tshirt line out. Sometimes things seem to really suck but when you ask God to renew your mind and heart daily, He will give you fresh perspectives and to those who can endure the trials remembering that they have already won, you won't miss the opportunities to bless those that curse you. Live fearlessly, Love truthfully and Laugh hard :-) goodnight

Unsurety and Insight

What do you do when things seem unsure? Pray anyway, love anyway, laugh anyway, live anyway. I have learned this truth along time ago but I have experienced this truth for the last few months. Honestly, I grew very weary of dong good at some points but God really reminded me to do anyway, continue anyway...in and out of season. I dont know where God is leading me but I can see the connections and the thngs that relate along the way. The vision God gave me for the group home is very real to me. That is my BHAG. I'm still doing research on defining and refining it in its totality but it is becomng mind boggling to me right now. But regardless of my unsurety, I will still move forward, and I guess I'll be learning along the way.

7 Random Facts about Satoya

1. I am addicted to store brand fruit snacks (Dinosaurs and sharks in particular)
2. I love watching TLC, Discovery Channel, and The History Channel.
3. I want to get a degree or certified to do all the things I love (Music, Psychology, Cosmotology)
4. I courtesy smile sometimes to make people comfortable...Some people dont get me...Really...lol
5. I like to sleep...alot...though I should get more of it.
6. I played classical piano for 8 years.
7. I am an information hog...I like to make calculated decisions and write everything down.

Wow

I just realized I haven't blogged all week! This makes me realize that I am not taking time out for myself like I should. I have been devoting a lot of time to work and haven't even taken many chances to empty myself here or empty myself so that God can really fill me. It's funny how little things remind you that God is the one that has to be in control when life gets so busy. Lord, forgive me for being to busy and not resting. You know better than I do. It's good to rest and you gave me permission to do that, and I will.

Testimony

So my 99 Ford explorer needs work (800 dollars worth of work) and it has almost 150,000 miles on it so does it make sense to take the money and pay for it? Nope. So how do I get another vehicle? Thank God for relationships. A friend of ours tells us to call his dad who owns a car dealership in Florida. So we call him and we were able to get a 2005 Cheverolet Cobalt with 30,900 miles for the manufacturers price and we had to put $500 down but an unknown person wrote us a check to cover that! Praise God!!!! He knows everything before and after. I was tempted to fret with everything going on with my ford at first but I could do nother but laugh because I knew I had absolutely no control over the situation...and it's better that way because He is a big God and he is more than enough.

What time is it?

So i've been watching the news and stuff lately, and I am really seeing the signs of the times. Bush is trying to make the whole North American Union thing with the one currency and wants everyone to get a national id with a microchip with all there info in it by may of this year. I just don't see how people can turn away from God especially at times like these. I know especially for people that grew up in church, they always heard older people, and their grandmothers say, he's coming back soon but now its time for youth to take it to heart, trust God, and watch and pray.

Can't really think of a title...

This year is going to be my best year yet and it already has been. I have been very busy with work and just life in general but I am excited to see what positive changes and adventure God has for me. Im really excited about this new Evensong Rising album. We had a photo shoot on saturday that just passed. It was fun, we took pics in the woods and in times square...it was fun. All these people were surrounding us and watching us pose for the camera. It was kind of weird but cool. Our record is being picked up nationally so God is moving us forward and upward. At work, I'm waiting to take the medical course so that I could get my promotion. I am very excited for what is coming up. Jason now has a position as musical support at a church in Bridgeport. I haven't decided if I want to go there with him or not because I don't know if I want to get involved...that always happens...where ever he goes to play, people always want me to get involved and do things. Maybe its what I'm suppose to do...I dunno...but I guess we'll see. I miss my friends...I miss my family, and my niece and I haven't seen my nephew yet...and I miss my Godson (SHOUT OUTS JOSHIE!!!!! :-) Till next time....Peace <3

New Blog for Goals

My goal for this year is simply put, the become a balanced individual...that's it. And I'm ecstatic about it!

A lot to think about

Its a new year...and I have decided upon NO NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS...I will not resolve to have anything quick fixed for the month of January just to fall apart February 1st. I am having a little bit of a tough time right now...there are many things I don't understand and the places I want to be with people that I want to be with isn't whats happening. I don't understand what is going on right now but clarity; in some form or another; always comes. I think the hardest thing for me right now is the fact the my husband and I are always arguing...over nothing! It just seems like we are not understanding each other. It is very frustrating to work for so many hours during the week to come home to an emotionally cold space. I try to be a good wife, a good friend, but what good is it if the person you love doesn't really want to talk to you?